What are you holding out for?

There's always stuff I really want to do, and I almost never do anything.

I've probably always been this way, but I really started to notice it towards the end of the summer and now at the beginning of the semester as I long for all the free time I wasted.  Ever the optimist, I make these monumental plans with my friends going into every summer break and they all nod and humor me but I get the feeling they know better anymore.  

We almost never do anything.

I've got the time, and the resources, but lately I've been struggling to stray from the path of least resistance.  I get into these routines, and I just won't stray from them for anything that takes any amount of work.  Over the summer I really wanted to go out into the woods I used to roam when I was a kid with one of my oldest friends, but since it was a couple degrees warmer than we would've liked we stayed in and played Call of Duty for what would be one of many times.  

It's been a really shitty day in the way of weather up here, and I can sit down and play all the duty I want now, but I just don't feel like it.  The way I play that game has told me a lot about the way I've been living; I never really get hyped up about playing it or get attached to it, but damn it makes for a decent way to pass an hour.  Man do those wasted hours add up though.  I have friends who have played so much COD that their playtime is measured in weeks.  WEEKS.  Now, I'm not quite that bad, but it's still disturbing to think I've probably wasted the equivalent of a few days of my life on an activity I'm not passionate about, I'm not interested in half the time, and I'm not required to do.  

I've spent the last year watching my friends graduate, move away, get engaged, switch schools, and just on a whole take massive steps towards the rest of their lives.  I'm running out of time with a lot of them; our days as college kids with a world of possibilities are coming to an end and we're all going to have to get real jobs and have real responsibilities awfully soon, so I've really gotta get my ass off the couch and start seeing the people I love and will miss.  

What are you holding out for?  What's always in the way?  If you don't have a damn good answer to either of those questions (I know I don't), I'd advise rethinking how you spend your time.  So to those of you who have been a part of one of my crazy half-brained plans that never panned out, be warned.  The time has come to write and record that song together, to beat that old video game together, to take that hike in the woods together, to toss a frisbee around together, or to just catch the fuck up finally.  I hope I'll be seeing you all relatively soon, and if I don't, I'll be sure it's not for lack of my effort.  

-Kevin